Welcome 2019!
Don’t get fictional.
I have a sense that this is the end for me, and for us. But, because I am 100 years early, it will be 2119 when the sky falls for the other.
So, what do I say to a child?
Where does the soul go in the middle of the desert where hope is lost? Where do we look? Where does one search? What do I do? Swallow resignation, eat acceptance, escape into God’s illusion? No wonder belief is stronger than knowing, it can and does fill desperation with denial.
Is ignorance genuinely a blessing? Does it keep the tears of meaningless time from drowning hope in hopelessness, unable to catch the breath of living?
Perhaps I should be silent in the room of faith and trust knowing that, it too, is an addiction, another psychosis that fights for the irrational, where both exist in a cosmic contradiction in an ambiguity of meaning.
Is evolution moving beyond the dream? What then is the dream? Another random cosmic creation looking for substance, or is it substance looking for a dream?
I don’t know. But, I have to let myself wander beyond my own skin into the mindful things that create in the substance of itself with a new capacity of vision; of looking at itself for the first time in living things, and then can see itself. Its own nature and character of living and dying in a collective passing-through in an illusion of time, leaving the remains of meaning in a meaningless quest that ends in images painted in words?
They only come with work and struggle, ultimately to die with ease, as the flames of matter destroy its record of existence. So, when the body burns, do the molecules remember anything? Is there something that holds bits of experience for the next absorption, for the next intake of the cosmic breath in a new dreaming?
What are the pieces of meaning? Goodwill, patience, diligence, acceptance, tolerance, objective tranquility, knowledge, eternal learning, truth, awareness, dreaming? Or the other side: envy, hate, fear, ignorance, judgment, belief, violence, harm, distortion, self deception, narcissism, selfishness, rape, plunder, greed, unearned wealth, distortion, cruelty, exclusion, indulgence…
Happy New Year! Happy will need adjustment.