Loose fit. Finding place, meaning, purpose. When I look at the routine of life I see it holding me together, as everything in the world today seems so much more conflated. Part of it is the hard-to-accept reality that there is little hope for human life in coming together beyond the meaning of basic survival and … Read more
Is self-esteem a feeling based fantasy? I was dreaming for a longer time than usual last night. It was a very unpleasant experience of displacement, invalidation and an absence of understanding or knowing. A nightmare in the morning. In the first part I was in a workshop space where I worked independently, seeking to solve … Read more
This is very difficult. A dream . . . I was at the university campus getting ready for a test, concluding my last course. I had already assumed my passing and confirmation and was playing with it in my mind. I was giving my answers to his questions. I did a sample test answer on … Read more
Disturbing dream . . . The first part takes place as I am looking down on the street from my apartment window. There was some kind of anger, hate thing, going on. It wasn’t about me personally, but about my being an “outsider” in this particular neighborhood or city. I was being careful to stay … Read more