Where am I? Feeling like I’m at the edge of life and death, while also looking at democratic governing that is incomplete, distorted and lost. Its path leads back to animal base/primal reaction, as the pieces fail to connect to what is needed in managing integrated behavior, goodwill to all that lives on planet Earth.
I was going to say, our planet, but that probably reveals one of the core failings of governing one’s self through ignorant narcissism. What do we bring to the table of survival besides ourselves, creating a way into our viable integration with the phenomenon of living?
Perhaps there is an egotism in life itself, a primary focus, in partnership with matter?
Does it not start with basic energy interactions—in the dynamic union of matter’s form, in the relationship itself—bringing matter into biological livingness, through the human species, through consciousness, integration, and awareness in the totality of all and everything?
Is this not the compass toward meaning of Cosmos Itself?
In our reach to invent a life purpose vs Life seeking to know Itself, we project our distorted fragments of light onto the omniscient Light of Creation, thinking we are at the center, that its all about us!
Is this the grand basis of illusion—invented by matter’s interactions—in a deep-seated impulse of force, seeking existence in the self, in the infinity of energy beyond the measure of knowing?
It is not only in what is comprehended in this reaching, it is also about what is beyond the reach of the present . . . the Game of Life seeking to know what is forever in its becoming.
As far as I have advanced in knowledge and conscious awareness, I have done well in escaping many of ego’s trappings. I have also lived in a time that served up a banquet of extraordinary upheaval in human enlightenment. Because of my questioning of the status quo, and my restless curiosity, I have opened the seeker’s window and looked out upon the landscape of possibility.
The problem for me is that I am also meeting the climax of both my death and that of the Sun and Earth. This is only a part of the whole cosmic story in which I can never know from this human perspective. What of Cosmic Knowing?