The Doorway of Beginnings

Enter the doorway of beginnings.

Expect to be offended, horrified, or appalled

In the range of sensory extremes.

Stand back.

Don’t get confused in hopelessness,

Or pain, disgust, judgment, and hate.

Listen,

Allow the senses to learn

Get distance from yourself,

See what it is,

How it reacts,

Bare the shock of reality’s vision.

I don’t know where hope rises

In the place empty of crying.

All I know is the mystery of magic in life,

Good and bad,

A meaningless happening

In the macro/micro distance

Beyond any concern of me.

Cold principles of function dictate in all.

It’s experience is not asking

Or caring about mine, me or yours.

So, I cry and laugh

In the detached distance

Of existence’s struggling.  

It seeks of me only to survive

In alignment with its demands.

Deny the quest and vanish in forgetting

Without a trace of goodness or meaning.

And yet, it is slightly possible

That we can know and learn together

And comply with Life’s purpose

In matters movements

And not corrupt

The principles of meaning

In the denial of pain.

Death is not simple in its accepting

Until after we are eaten.

So why kill what we can’t eat?

Like who we imagine ourselves to be?

This can determine

If we have a continuing destiny.

But, hopeless reaction in instant’s death

Cannot guide our becoming.

All the while the awakening dead

Guide the ship of meaning

With dreams, appetites and denial

Of the human crimes against meaning and hope

Is on trial.

Look what we have done with the trees.

Desperate people mad with axes, guns, and money

Murder for survival’s sake.

War and peace.

Kill and eat,

Fall asleep and wake up hungry,

Ready to kill again and again,

Resistance returns to anger.

It is nature’s law.

Follow it until comfort turns into fat,

Necessity into denial,

Sleep into waiting

To be killed and eaten by another.

Filled with starvations’ fear

Driving grace from meaning,

We do not see

Beyond the reality of the “me”.

Hungry and cold

Is the warmth of another tree  

As it burns up in the fire of destiny.

Around we go in extinction’s cycle

Blinded by vision’s inability to see

Even in the moment of necessity.

We stop living in our biology.

And then don’t do what we need to do

In the denial of appetites grasp

Leaving fear to guide reaction’s path.

Sanity among the insane doesn’t work either.

No wonder belief is more comforting than reality.