An event I watched on MSNBC of a large black man running to escape and getting shot dead in the early evening, run down by two policemen, all three in a desperate battle of survival. It looked like the police were trying to subdue the man, perhaps quite routinely. Apparently the man was parked at … Read more
What a morning! It’s 30 degrees outside. I awoke this morning still tired from a restless sleep from the cold night. I tried to go through my morning routine, but fell back asleep after an unsuccessful attempt. I awoke again and was still struggling with my will. I pushed on with the morning routine realizing how … Read more
A bit of mud in the Eye of God. I’m interested in the structure and character of the hippocampus and the neural chemistry of the pineal gland, but more importantly I need to ‘go there’ and use it. I’m a bit flakey these days regarding memory, mental structuring and placement—the aging of my physical mind-brain and … Read more
I wait, Watching, Filling the emptiness with alarm While time crushes yet another human illusion Under the heel of reason, Where simple choice turns to doubt Disturbing the balance of place; No idea, no means, no sense To fix meaning or choice In the madness of the times, Struggling, waiting, doubting, Knowing something worse is … Read more
Drifting, spinning, turning, Fast then slow, Moving unaware On a giant Ship of Life; Failing to look into the portholes of infinite time, In the eternal breath of fast and slow, Movement of stepping, Left-to-right, back-and-forth, over again-and-again, It is in the biology of self, Sailing on the brief journey through one’s life Where we … Read more
Not feeling all that certain about my own coherence. I said something poignant to Annette and it really upset her. I have been thinking about it as well. “Nobody cares about what you do”, I stated. A kick in the belly to the ego. She took it hard and as I am thinking about it, … Read more
Another phase on the trail towards death—two more pieces of paper. As I watch from my ‘secure box of living‘ I see a pause in action—writing while the present continues to reveal itself lost. The Soul gravitates down to the basics of oneself. I take hold of it and know there is more to come. … Read more
What’s on my mind today? Toni Morrison, who writes with space between words and lines. Then she can fill in what she writes with what comes in the later read. Only it is more significant when copying to the computer in the first edit. Otherwise, one rips through a lot of paper. It seems to be natural … Read more
Deception is like having a really good frosting on a bad cake. It’s only after you’ve had that first bite that you realize the truth! I see the shine, but know the truth is undermined I hear the glory and love in feeling’s expression And see the knowledge of failure and deception But, how can … Read more
Another step into the future. I had an inspiring conversation with my friend Dani last evening. I was fairly drunk and slightly disoriented, but after a while I was able to find myself and we discussed some interesting topics, especially about the evolution of spirit. This is what I see to be the purpose of … Read more